Tom (1972)

ah all right [Music] florida [Music] so [Music] so [Music] i was the first the oldest of six catholic children and uh i went to catholic school for my whole grammar school period i was uh astutely catholic but by the time i was 11 i kind of demanded to be put into a public school which my parents did for two years but then i started turning into such a little scalawag responding to the early vibrations of the rock culture wanting to have a ducktale all the accoutrements of a young hoe daddy in 1957 or 58 and so i was put for a year and do a fine young man's school i was miserable at this prep school but on the other hand my mind saw it constantly for my means of escape so i really fixated heavily on the ocean as a symbol so i started like started surfing that summer my identity became so tied up with serving and surfing was a stimulus so strong you know it is really good for me physically plus it got me going through the motions of finding things exploring california it's so precarious you know i mean you're literally inside a tube of water you're in the eye of the wave it's terrifying it really is but it's also exhilarating extremely psychedelic your senses are just barraged by energy i've been doing it for 12 years and i still relate to it but it's not i don't you know i used to be a surfer you know first and foremost you know now i might think well but i'm really a mammal oh those things get you so loaded this is the finest thing that's everything mike and i got those people so loaded at that mu at that party that we were at that everybody forgot they just forgot any any trips everybody was just sitting there you know they were just sitting there digging each other and digging me and digging digging michael and and it was you know it was a primo feeling really a primal feeling we had a really high collection of people you know that really helped pot is almost a constant smoking weed the first j i smoke during the day always is is unique you know because it's a kind of a fresh impetus to the nervous system and so overall effect is one of kind of being a tranquilizer actually my status piece for the season hand printed christmas card the idea i got from the tarot one of my favorite cards and a card corresponding to me astrologically this is the hermit sometimes i project into my myth qualities that are ascribed to this this particular sign which is a i think it represents a person or an aspect of the personality the evolving personality where it's reached not the final degree of enlightenment like you can't call him really a master of wisdom but uh yet he's the attained degree of wisdom or world knowledge sufficient that he has a responsibility to uh to turn on his brothers you know his fellow man hello that's david kennedy that's sherry that's my what are you brother getting loaded what have you been doing oh nothing you sound sweet um i just came by to see some of your pots and stuff on my biceps for christmas presents i went to orange coast college at junior college for a year and a half after high school although i you know i didn't know then why i was doing it nor do i ignore now you know this is what we do next and uh i got turned on to drugs kind of when i was going there and at the same time i got caught by my parents for training on which caused you know just shrieking just my son died on june 16th and i got sent to the shrink to get better at the end of that summer i took acid and it uh it just blew my mind like it was so extreme an experience is a real acid trip you know is like it's beyond pleasure it's beyond pain it's beyond complacency it's beyond fear you know you get you just [ __ ] get your mind blown okay how's things been going uh we had a pretty good good last december because i sold a bunch of pottery so i didn't have anything in the internet oh you did good um did you keep a list of how much you made well i made about 75 bucks you didn't keep a record no because i gave so many of them away are you still doing this yeah but i haven't i haven't any now i've been doing a little carpentry like i'm doing it for a brother downtown and he's got about as much money as i do i think i made about making somewhere upwards of twenty-five by somebody sharon yeah you're still working for the helper i was uh in a period of taking a lot of lsd and living in actually living the just the archetypal drop out existence in town here and uh when you're you know when you're taking psychedelic chemicals you're really uh sensitive to the fact that what you'd normally recognize as being reality you know how your consciousness reacts to the everyday [ __ ] uh there is just a fraction of what's there and so usually you kind of undertake a search to find uh what you think is real and what isn't what will verify uh the experiences you've had you know taking these drugs and what doesn't and the tarot the tarot isn't lsd but uh lsd and the tarot are both involved in uh self-realization you have been looking for work haven't you oh yeah well i okay you know like i'm not idle i built that bedroom before you can i don't get out of the light that extension out there i need to build on an extension of the bathroom but uh i live in a i don't know what you'd call the community i live in but nobody's got any money so like i work every week but sometimes i do it for free i used to work at the akron about a year ago i worked at the akron as a display man but uh besides some uh i mean i i couldn't work for the akron because of some of the things they were selling i just couldn't believe it you know like they're selling gdp you know that's like committing suicide slowly to assist in the you know that destructive a phase of the marketplace i've taken just about every psychedelic except for organic mushrooms i don't know how many times i've dropped i could probably estimate around 150. most of it's been a waste most of it's just been a burden on my nervous system frankly maybe 150 doses you know trips i've taken 10 really stand out you know 10 really were psychedelic experiences i just didn't take enough or i took too much in the wrong place you know you can really goof taking the things that's for sure if you're in a hung up state and you take them i mean it's going to focus right in on that usually and you can have what is called a bum trip but just meaning you get swept away by some unresolved aspect and you can't get free of it some trips are all kinds of things but they can really be avoided i think a lot i did it two years i did it last year and i didn't like it at all so i didn't do it for a year and then i did it um two weeks ago for the christmas formal but the christmas forum was a [ __ ] sacrament just see you know because christmas formal last year is so funny i thought well maybe i didn't like mexican before but i had such a good time it was just so funny i mean it stimulates nice parts of your consciousness i think these are times where if we're going to survive on a very large scale we have to stop acting blindly you know acting by impulse and on an ego level and investigate what we really need as a whole being and act in accordance to the needs of the species rather than what tv tells you that you ought to be and mostly in terms of what you consume and what you can afford and what you own and acid definitely does that it cuts away the [ __ ] no stocks of bonds do you have any court ordered payments charles ford alimony famous probation department are you attending college you're receiving any training i'm receiving lots of training up at the pottery school but it's all it's just on a there's no capital involved it's just uh brotherly loud those are beautiful science buttons fat ones with some navajo indians american native american church ceremony outside that's the last time i've taken psychedelic we're so good i haven't wanted to since they know how to use that medicine so good if you take a cap of masculine or psilocybin or lsd you're taking a cap of whatever somebody decided they were going to make in the market you know because the stuff is part of the marketplace yeah and so i don't take commercial lsd i just don't do it because i've you know too many [ __ ] times have taken a drug and in 20 minutes i've known i've taken some bum [ __ ] drug so peyote there's no doubt you know who made it the fuzz there's kind of this spiny fiberglass like fuzz in the center and i'm not sure what the chemical content is but it's repulsive to eat the actually the fresh priority cactus is repulsive to eat oranges one piece of orange with a button and it tastes really good it's a good combination you just you just take the fuzz out and uh put it in water and make a tea out of it you should boil it for about two hours at least make a tea out of it chug it down as quickly as you can chase it with an orange and uh don't eat anything before because it'll come up the psychedelics if you relate to them as a sacrament you will have the experience more times than not that you would expect of of a sacrament like when i had my first communion i waited you know like i was so primed i was seven years old and i went uh and got the host and swallowed it and i sat there and waited and the priest had give me a nudge and said go on because there were a bunch of kids after him because nothing happened but i can guarantee it man if you take a psychedelic something will happen every time heaven or hell it's all within you you know there's nothing in the lsd that isn't in you you know all it is is a catalyst i want to go hiking let me at it get me out of this town i lose all my and i don't want plots around here because we got to drive oh yeah that's good psychedelics man that's another good thing about them they turn you on to levels of play that you'd never have the hair you know to break your facade to do and you need it it's in the organism you need to play you need to just get up and nudge your pal you know and go through a couple of boom boom boom you know and [ __ ] like that making faces oh uh [Music] incredible lack of gains to play more than anything that's uh that's why i like to come over and take it there's nothing you can do to match it you know so you don't have to do anything except be with it i'm trying to be as still as possible so that i can feel my body and feel nature's best i can i feel really good i feel really i know it's hard to say it in words peyote doesn't let up really merged with the rest of the energy around i feel really good i must have gotten contact high psychedelic this cleans so earthy you see lightning flashes out of the corner of my eye that's a sign that i'm really loaded the brotherhood of man i really believe in it and that belief is probably due in part to acid trips because i've experienced it you know or i felt that i was experiencing some incredibly real living link between myself and the rest of the human organism and i believe in that vision you